Falling backwards into oblivion

The past couple of weeks have sucked royally. I can't actually say anything good has happened. The next week is going to suck as well. I just need to make it through the last 5 weeks of school and then I think I'll be good again. I really think it's my two French classes that are making me hate my life. I hate French and I hate French literature even more. If all I did was speak the language, I think that would be fine, but that is not the case.

I have a big French project due this week that is going to kill me. Once that is over with, I'll be doing much better. I would like to be caught up with most everything by the time I go home for Easter. I think I can do it. I need to make a plan of what I'm going to do this week.

There is just so much other stuff going on, I don't even know what to do with myself. I of course have personal drama, and that's annoying, but whatever. I don't even know what to say now, I'm fall back into one of my worst old patterns of behavior, and I can't seem to shake it. We'll see, maybe it will work out differently this time around. I am the biggest masochist I know. It's really bad.